I literally haven't been on here in months. I think I tried a while back and forgot my password or something. A lot of things have changed for me. I am no longer waiting for a deployment to be over. I now have my own apartment in NY and won't be going back to NC in the winter. After my grandpa passed away I had to do some real soul searching. I will be going for my CNA license in a few weeks And I'm sooooo excited for that! How has everyone else been?!
So my mom went to get a new car today. Well actually an SUV. She was looking at KIAs because she wanted AWD. So a man by the name of Mike comes out. Of course my mom already doesn't like the whole car buying experience. She was kind of hesitant with him at first, and it was rather awkward. He showed us a KIA Sorento and a KIA Sportage. Anyways, we didn't end up getting either of them. We did however trade her stratus for a new SUV!
After two test drives of different cars, we realized a 2011 just wasn't something she wanted to go with right now. aaaaaaaaand we came home with..... Drum roll please....
A Nissan Rouge. Let me tell you, this thing is a sweet ride. I drove it because she's not big on major highway or city driving, so I brought it home for her. It's awesome! If I had kids, I would totally get this sucker! The seats are so comfortable, and the ride is so quiet! I love it!
Back to Mike! (The salesman). So we chat with him quite a bit, and he is very patient, and not your typical pushy salesman. He has a great personality, and you can just tell he is a very genuine person to be around. He was very accommodating, and I only had to tell him my name once, even though I wasn't the one buying the car, and he remembered it 3 hours later, and introduced me to a finance man. I was so impressed because I'm usually horrible with names!
He told us that his wife has multiple sclerosis, which a person can have a great day, or a bad day. He told us that she gets shots once a week, and basically she's just going to have a bad day when she gets them. These shots are like 3 inches or so long and today was her day to receive the shot. Multiple sclerosis or MS is a disease that affects the brain and spinal cord resulting in loss of muscle control, vision, balance, and sensation (such as numbness). With MS, the nerves of the brain and spinal cord are damaged by one's own immune system. Thus, the condition is called an autoimmune disease. She can obviously never work, because you never know when you're going to have a bad day. I really hope us buying a car, gave him some good news to bring home to her and she was able to find some good in today. He was such a sweetheart. He also is going to be a grandfather today most likely! I will definitely be thinking of this man in the next few days. He's the kind of person who instills hope that there are some genuine people left in this world.
Mom and I hadn't eaten anything today. The finance guy asked us if we wanted a coffee or water, and I told him that a cheeseburger would be nice. Did I get my burger? Heck yes I did. and some fries, and a coke! Boy these salesmen know the way to my heart! :) Got my burger, like a boss!
I guess apart of me took you for granted. I always half expected you to be there when I got married. My assumption was is you were such a stubborn person you would always be around. I couldn't have been more wrong. I can't begin to express how sorry I am for that. Regret is the worst part of all of this. Regretting things I should have, or could have done differently.
Why do we always take people for granted who are always there? We never realize it until we can NEVER have a conversation with that person again. Until it really is too late. I would always walk in and give Gramma a kiss, and then I would give you one. Only giving Gram a kiss just seems empty somehow.
I miss the ways you used to always pick on me. You always did it with a good spirit and it was hilarious. Like when I had a hoop lip ring in, and a big blonde streak in my brunette hair, and you called me a floozy. Or the time you wanted to kick the kids ass at the grocery store for checking me out, and then we went back to the motel and drank some Bush lights.
I had 21 years of knowing you, and having you in my life, and I know you lead a long long life, but it still somehow seems unfair to me. I can't help but feeling there was so much more you could have taught me. Feeling like I didn't know you enough kills me inside.
It's only been a week of you being gone, and it honestly feels like an eternity.
As if we didn't have enough to deal with after my grandpa passing. Like we really don't have a funeral to attend Tuesday It's awesome that I missed my husbands first phone call home while he's on deployment. Now my gramma goes to the hospital cause she can't breathe?